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Post by Jaze Avalon on Oct 15, 2010 23:40:17 GMT -5
Jaze sighed and leaned his head on the wall beside the door, frowning. "I wouldn't like it no..." He mumbled before looking at her. "But I'm not good for much else... I've been through a million jobs already. The boss was just doing a favor hiring me... I would quit Ber, I would but I want to keep making money for you and Sunny..." He looked down at his feet, frowning to himself. What could he do?
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Post by Berlin Dice on Oct 16, 2010 12:00:55 GMT -5
Berlin very carefully sat up, supporting Sunny before laying the baby on her back on her lap. "How would you know what you're good at, Jaze? You never try. You give up so easily." she said softly and sighed. "If you wanted, you could be anything. Do anything. But you resign yourself to this .. this fate! This fate of never being more than a guy who works whatever crappy job he can get." she said and looked down at Sunny. "If you're not even willing to try and better yourself and get a better job then.. I don't know if this is going to work." she breathed, looking up at him sadly.
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Post by Jaze Avalon on Oct 16, 2010 12:05:29 GMT -5
Jaze frowned, watching her. "Berlin... please don't say that. I've tried! I have! Hell, you don't even know all the jobs I went through! I can't even get the money to better myself..." He rubbed his face and watched her, blinking hard. "Please say you don't mean that... you can't seriously say that with our kid right there..." He said sadly, not used to begging but hey, if it works...?
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Post by Berlin Dice on Oct 16, 2010 12:26:16 GMT -5
Berlin shook her head slightly, "I can't spend every night sitting here, knowing what you do at work, Jaze. I'm sorry, but I can't!" she shook her head again, looking down at Sunny. "Just.. try and find something else. Please. I'll ask my family, friends, anyone, just.. Not the job you have right now. I can't handle it. And I know that's stupid. But I can't." she said, watching him.
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Post by Jaze Avalon on Oct 16, 2010 13:47:00 GMT -5
Jaze sighed and nodded, looking to the floor. "Okay... okay. Just... should I quit now or can I wait till something comes up?" He asked, feeling pretty pathetic right then. How the hell can he find a job to support his family that she'd be happy with? He graduated high school barely but that's it. Other than experience in almost all types of minimum wage jobs, he wasn't suited for much else.
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Post by Berlin Dice on Oct 16, 2010 14:11:55 GMT -5
Berlin tilted her head. "You can work there until then if that's what you want.." she said lowly, shrugging a little. She wanted to say no, that he had to quit now. But she couldn't. She could see how badly she'd dented his self-esteem already and she felt massively guilty. Though what could she do now? And so she just fell silent, stroking over Sunnys tummy. "I'm sorry Jaze." she said quietly.
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Post by Jaze Avalon on Oct 16, 2010 14:26:35 GMT -5
Jaze shrugged, sighing. "It's what you want babe. Don't apologize..." He mumbled and fished in his pocket to check for his cigarettes. "I need a smoke but I'll be back." He said and pulled the carton out before slipping out of the room. He left the apartment to sit on the stairs outside, lighting a cigarette.
With his head in his hand, he sat there for some time, even when the cigarette was just a small stub. What the hell could he do? He knew the chances of him finding a job that she approved of were slim. And if he couldn't and she said it was over, where could he go? He doubted his parents would let him come hope still... It was all too much to think about. After what seemed like an hour and another cigarette, he got up and went back inside quietly. He went to the room to see if she was still awake, not wanting to disturb her if she wasn't.
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Post by Berlin Dice on Oct 16, 2010 15:01:59 GMT -5
Berlin nodded, watching him go. She sighed a little, getting up and put Sunny in her cot before taking a seat the crib. She turned on the little girls night light, watching as it projected pale stars and moons on the roof. She curled up in the armchair and watched Sunny sleep. She never thought it would all be this hard. Ever. She checked her watch a few times in all the time he was outside.
Once she heard the door she peered out, seeing him checking the bedroom. "Hey, over here." she said softly so she wouldn't wake Sunny, stepping out and closing over the nursery door, holding a baby monitor in one hand. She leaned on the wall that separated two door ways between the bedroom and nursery. "Are you okay? You were outside for a while.." she said softly.
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Post by Jaze Avalon on Oct 16, 2010 15:22:51 GMT -5
Jaze looked up when she came out of the nursery, surprised she was still awake. He sighed and nodded, frowning. "Sorry.. I hope I didn't keep you up..." He said, rubbing the back of his head. He had just needed some time to think and all. He hadn't meant to worry her.
Yawning, he rubbed his eyes slightly before leaning against the wall. "Is Sunny okay?" He asked, mostly out of habit. He looked to the door of the nursery for a moment then glanced back to her.
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Post by Berlin Dice on Oct 16, 2010 15:42:47 GMT -5
Berlin nodded when he asked about Sunny. "Yeah. She's asleep." she said and held up the monitor, the baby could be heard breathing. "I think we should do the same." she said and sighed, gently pushing him away from the wall and in to the bedroom before going to set the monitor on the nightstand before climbing on to the bed and looking to Jaze. She hoped a good nights sleep would settler her. And him. And so she prayed Sunny would behave and sleep through.
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Post by Jaze Avalon on Oct 16, 2010 16:21:41 GMT -5
Jaze nodded, feeling pretty tired. He let her push him to the bedroom and all, complying. Once in, he pulled off his shirt and jeans, wanting to at least be comfortable. Slowly, he climbed onto the bed and dropped onto his stomach, turning his head so that he could breath at least. He watched Berlin for a moment, blinking slowly for a bit. "Are you still mad about Claire?" He asked, mentioning his cousin. That whole ordeal seemed like days ago but it was that same night.
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Post by Berlin Dice on Oct 16, 2010 18:03:17 GMT -5
Ber laid on her side, watching Jaze. When he asked about Claire she sighed softly. "No.. I just.. She really is your cousin, right?" she asked softly then bit her lip, "Forget it, that's not even important. Whether she is or isn't, I trust you." she said softly and nodded a little. She knew she was being the crazy girlfriend, but she couldn't help but worry a little. He was hot.
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Post by Jaze Avalon on Oct 17, 2010 1:40:37 GMT -5
Jaze sighed and nodded. "She is Berlin... Claire Mircea, which is my mom's maiden name. I wouldn't lie to you Ber..." He said softly, watching. Even though she said she trusted him, he didn't feel like she did. After all, she didn't even believe that Claire was his cousin... He moved onto his side, placing an arm around her lightly. "Love you Berlin..." He mumbled quietly, eyes already closed.
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Post by Berlin Dice on Oct 17, 2010 13:28:59 GMT -5
Ber nodded as he spoke of Claire. Though when he said he loved her, she watched him a moment longer before replying. "I love you too, Jaze. A lot." she said softly before closing her eyes and finally letting sleep take her. She wanted this day to be over. Though she didn't get to sleep right through, around five am Sunny awoke and began to cry. Berlin rolled over and opened her eyes, slowly sitting up and rubbing her eyes so she could go through.
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Post by Jaze Avalon on Oct 18, 2010 1:12:14 GMT -5
Jaze had let sleep take him as well. He needed the day to be done with. But of course, nothing ever seems to go right. He sighed as Sunny started crying and Berlin got up. He rolled onto his side and curled up a bit, making a face. "Just bring her in here." He mumbled to her, thinking it would be easier than Ber having to stay up for god knows how long to calm Sunny, only to end up going back in there later.
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